today is another one of those times wherein i become so stuffed up with things to think about and things that i try to figure out with my so busy mind that is already packed with problems.. i mean... in other words... am confused... i've been confused for like 5 months now? or more i guess... but still... i feel a little bit awkward today... as if things just fall right into me in batches of thousands instead of just one... and i can't handle it... physically am not ready... neither am i emotionally... not to mention the pressure of schooling and the stuffs that i really need to finish by next week or so... but i guess these things just didnt happen because they were like karma or coincidences that just came to me out of nowhere... i do believe that all things happen for a reason and that reason maybe bad or good.. but either way, we have to accept it.. i guess they are just trials given to us by you know who.. although it's hard to overcome, we need to try to fight our problems away... well... easy to say, yea, but it is very hard to do... expecially if you dont have the courage to do it...
to lay it out in simpler terms, try to imagine a forest that is being cut down by one logger.. the forest isnt much affected by it because it is just one and that the forest can heal by itself after a period of time... but imagine a forest being cut down by hundreds of loggers together with their machines and saws... would you think that the forest can heal by itself in an instant?
the answer is a big fat NO! the forest will have trouble in growing back it's trees.. and as more loggers come in... the more it becomes bare and hopeless.... it becomes destroyed and stripped off its serenity...
that my friends is how i kinda feel right now... am just one... but hundreds of things and problems come in my mind that tortures me every moment for some time now... i just need a break to relax from these bad vibes and stress and pressure that surrounds me everyday... and i cant help to think about it because eveytime i try to forget my problem, another one shows up.. the cycle goes on and on... then BOOM! when i can't handle it anymore.. i might just crack and loose my sanity...
well.. i guess that's all for now...
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